Last Night He Wanted to Make Love to Me

SHE SAID
Last night he wanted to make love. Me…ehhh. Well I’m just not feeling it…AS USUAL. He asked me, “How does it feel to turn me away?” What can you say to that? It feels like I am turning you away. I know it’s been like a year and a half later but I have not lost the weight since the baby and I just feel so blah. And of course his cheating has not made this a DESIRABLE situation. So most times, if not always, I just lay back and wait till the “feels good” kicks in. Sad because that’s not how I want the relationship to go. I really do want to “make love”. Time before last that happened. So I know its possible.

HE SAID
The feeling I have with having sex verses making love brings me to this, I have a lot of love to give and although the cheating was not one sided I want to feel like things are moving forward. But it doesn’t sometimes. I feel like I’m invading space that’s not mine anymore so sometimes I feel /act like a homeless person that’s begging for charge and sometimes its hard to scrap up a dollar for a chicken sandwich and yes in the beginning of the act I feel like I’m making love to myself until “it” kicks in, although all things are possible, I wonder if its possible for two cheaters to make love again?